hello, it's been a while.

i'm back. i read several of the latest posts on this blog before it was neglected by me for about half a year. and man, i was thinking "so many things have changed in the past six months." funny, the latest post's title was "it's a good start". and now i rebuke it, "what a good joke?" the past six months was so surreal, it was like a dream. even now, there are some things i just can't reconcile with. life, you've got me fooled again. God, you've got me tested again. you know, realities always smack you in the face when you've painted life too beautifully? realities always fall short of your expectations.about two months ago, this friend of mine told me, "jo, don't let these take your positivity away, your positivity is part of who you are." i question myself now, "just who am i?"