i'm losing the warmth of your hands. i thought the nightmares found their way out but to only realise that they lurk just underneath my bed, ready to get out and jump on me any time i fall... i still can't see an end of this darkness. all that surround me is cold water - deceitful hopes. right now, at this moment, i wish i have never made that mistake. a mistake that led to a series of painful afflictions. you won't understand because you never had to go through these, because i won't allow that.
fuck you.
fuck these cold water around me.