I had lunch with Diana this afternoon. (By the way, D is my elder sister) I've been meeting up with her for quite a number of times since she's stationed at NUH for work almost everyday. Honestly, I feel it's part of God's plan to 'place' D near me, in a way... Praise God. As I'm so caught up in school & hall, I hardly get to spend time with my family. Unquestionably..I am guilty. Thank God, D's like a messenger between home & I & I'm genuinely grateful for that. Recently, I feel so close to D again. Probably because I've been confiding pretty much to her; it's the kind of comfort I get from kw, jiunn & huiling... Nah she isn't a makeshift, never. I could feel that she cares a lot for me & this really just made my day. I love you D (:
Lately, many things are made obscured for me -- tangibles or manifestations. I used to think that nothing is ever absolute except for life and death. Then, I came to know that God's love is absolute so that's also added onto my list of absolutes. Other than these...what else is absolute? Motherly love? I'm not being critical but nah I'm pretty sure my mom's love for me probably dipped when she found out I lied about having a boyfriend in the past. As harsh as this may sound, realistically one's love for another would never be perfect in quality. Do you think I will still love you as much as I do now if I were to find out you killed my cat? Whether by accident or not. Maybe I will love you as much again in time to come..but it will never be absolute. Many times in life, we are capable of achieving excellence but perfection? Always just a wee bit away. Yet, that diminutive is somehow like an impossibility. It's like there are a 100 steps from the starting point to perfection and the distance between two steps gradually increases. You slowly hike. Then when you come to the second last step, you're daunted because the distance from the second last step to perfection is like a million times wider than the usual ones. That distance there, I call it uncertainty. Every so often I thought I'm really sure about something, then in a split second, everything changes. Like an ambush, you got robbed when you least expect it. Don't bother to wonder, because our common friend, uncertainty, hovers around us and we will never figure him out.
How 'bout dropping a hint once in a while, uncertainty?
Lately, many things are made obscured for me -- tangibles or manifestations. I used to think that nothing is ever absolute except for life and death. Then, I came to know that God's love is absolute so that's also added onto my list of absolutes. Other than these...what else is absolute? Motherly love? I'm not being critical but nah I'm pretty sure my mom's love for me probably dipped when she found out I lied about having a boyfriend in the past. As harsh as this may sound, realistically one's love for another would never be perfect in quality. Do you think I will still love you as much as I do now if I were to find out you killed my cat? Whether by accident or not. Maybe I will love you as much again in time to come..but it will never be absolute. Many times in life, we are capable of achieving excellence but perfection? Always just a wee bit away. Yet, that diminutive is somehow like an impossibility. It's like there are a 100 steps from the starting point to perfection and the distance between two steps gradually increases. You slowly hike. Then when you come to the second last step, you're daunted because the distance from the second last step to perfection is like a million times wider than the usual ones. That distance there, I call it uncertainty. Every so often I thought I'm really sure about something, then in a split second, everything changes. Like an ambush, you got robbed when you least expect it. Don't bother to wonder, because our common friend, uncertainty, hovers around us and we will never figure him out.
How 'bout dropping a hint once in a while, uncertainty?