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I never thought I'd say this but yeah, I rather study one more year than start work. My mother and sister asked me few nights ago what I'm gonna do when I graduate next year, seriously I'm not very sure. Yes I always say PR but sometimes I feel that I'm not cut out for it. I hate to use the word regret or say if only, because I don't want to succumb to such adverse thoughts. But darn, I want to experience NOC pretty badly, I think -- NUS Overseas College where undergraduate gets to work and study at the same time for a year. Well, if I do get accepted for honours program, I'll probably apply for NOC. I said if cuz my results barely hit the mark and it's not easy to get into NOC... And there are also other significant reasons why I want to go NOC... I actually feel kinda lost now, suddenly, and I loathe this feeling. Things took quite a big turn for me ever since I graduated from secondary school and I don't really know what the reasons are. I don't quite know what I really want, at least for now...
Well, today I was just wondering... Why..did God place my best friends overseas and me here... All three of them..and what about me? It's quite frustrating sometimes...
And my fever refuses to go away. I've already taken so many fever tablets but it still persist. And my flu...is causing me to finish almost half a box of tissue in a day. I can't concentrate on my work, anything but work.
I am angsty.