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Sometimes the best thing of my day is to stand under the warm shower
(It's not that pathetic or strange)
and just let the water flows down over your ears,
because all the noises in the surrounding become muffled,
what's left is just the sound of gushing water.
I really love this undisturbed feeling.
Today is such a day.
No one is looking,
so I can unmask and cut pretense.
No one is hearing,
so I can weep and pray.
No one is talking,
so I can think clearly and decide.
I can ignore everything else,
to come clean with my own feelings.
Sometimes I wonder if without God,
I'll be totally defenseless and impotent to deal with so many things.
The battle never ceases, it never will..at least while I still walk on this earth.
But I just hope one or two tussles within this battle can end quickly.
I'm equipped, and I know the rest is not up to me.
Because while I can be the editor of the story of my life,
God is the ultimate author.